All I Ever Wanted

11 Jun, 2025

MUSIC Information:

• Hello World Notebook
• C Major/A Minor
• 37 Measures
• Cello and Piano
• 3:09 Min
• 3 Pages

“There are two tragedies in life: one is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it.” _ George Bernard Shaw

ADMITTING WHAT I WANT

Is it wrong to want? There's something almost embarrassing about admitting openly and honestly what I want. "All I ever wanted" sounds simple, so small. Perhaps that's why, wishing for something holds so much power.

But because the phrase "All I Ever Wanted" is emotionally loaded, it has become an expression that has lost much of its meaning through overuse. Writers and songwriters gravitate towards it, continuing to eroded through repetition its authenticity.

IT DOES NOT EXIST YET

The world we live in, keeps asking for more and more, demanding to dream bigger, to be ambitious to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. At times, the world dares nurturing an unhealthy sense of competition with one and another. Indeed, at times, admitting what I really want feels so frivolous.

Wanting seems to live in an empty space, between what is, and what could be. It is simply as if I could reach towards something that does not exist yet. My mind then, becomes a theater play, where I can rehears different scenes full of satisfaction before I've earned what I want.

I WANT IT ALL AND RIGHT NOW

But desiring is not always about tangible things. Sometimes I want to be understood, or to be hold. As a human full of contradictions, I'd like time to slow down and speed up faster than the light, simultaneously. Just the same way, I surprise myself wanting to be adventurous without the risks involved and be safe at the same time. I want it all, and I want it right now, that seems to be the factory setting of the western society, and it stands firm to its role.

Strangely as it may seems, "wanting" shapes me even when I don't get what I want. Because the desire to be or to have something, creates an identity, a story I tell myself about who I might become. Wanting is part of life, perhaps it's just another word for being alive, because, even when I think I don't want nothing, the yearning is constant, relentless, and it can get very creative.

THINGS THAT MATTER

I wrote this piece thinking of "All I ever wanted". A phrase that immediately signals longing, fulfillment, and also resembles the gap between dreams and reality. It is a piece that from the opening measures, the piano sets an unhurried tone. It is my wish that as you listen, the music will remind you about the things that matter: The desire of love, the wish for peace, perhaps a little understanding, or simply a place to belong. Things that as humans, we all want.

This composition in turn, is asking you to look for that peaceful moment that you don't have to question and you don't have to explain. Feel that moment that holds still when everything else moves to fast.

IF YOU ASK ME

If you ask me _ all I ever wanted was simplicity in every aspect of my life, not loud or complicated moments. Of course, in my younger years, this was not my default position, for all I ever wanted then, was to be in the middle of the action, and I did surrounded myself often, and as much as possible, with the company that provided me with the most delightful moments. Nights, back then, were young.

For my part, when I play this piece, I will remind myself that to want, to hope, to feel_ is not a vice, but a sign of being alive. In the end, this piece of music is an acknowledge to what it means to be a human, a human being that is full of wishes and desires. No more, nor less.